I think I will post one soon, but I’m so disgusted at myself, every time I go to click submit I chicken out.

So I have been gone. A long time

Like month and a half? 

And shit has gone done. Major shit. Mum found my blog, bitched out, papped me of to Ireland for a few weeks to live with some relatives. Gained 5 whole pounds. I have never been so ashamed of myself. But I have returned and will get back down to slimming until I don’t feel sick looking at myself in the mirror.

Today I received some messages today from people concerned about my diet. I do admit that I took it too far yesterday, but I felt very emotional and angry. Don’t worry I plan to take it a bit easier from now on <3 Todays calorie intake stands at 684. I understand that my diet may not be the healthiest option, but please try and understand that I really just don’t like who I am. 6 years of bullying for who I am and what I look like has taken a toll on me, but please don’t worry about me, I have a very loving family looking out for me <3

Shit. Took it a bit far today. Ate around 500 calories, and after the whole spaghetti drama  with my mum I felt like shit so started working out until I saw black spots and my legs gave way. Head feels like a god damn jack hammer….

think skinny thoughts

it will be worth it

chin(s) up fatso.

My mum just came into my room with a bowl of spaghetti bolgnese and won’t leave until I eat it. 600 calories. 600 FUCKING CALORIES. WHAT THE FUCK?! Need advice, what can I do guys?! She needs to think that I ate it?!

Not exactly sure about my calorie intake today..around 658. Which is ok, I guess. My work out schedule was pretty fucked up. Done two sets of cardio, then later just doing a combination of squats and crunches etc., till I got a headache and felt like I was going to pass out. By the way thanks for the followers :D I know like 25 isn’t a lot in the great scheme of tumblr but it means a lot to me <3